Anxiety isn’t crying all the time alone in your room. It’s being alone silently wishing you had more tears to cry. Wondering why me? Why am I so broken? Why does no one see I’m suffering? It’s drowning in myself. It’s getting lost in all my cracks and flaws as I look in the mirror. It’s overwhelming fear when there isn’t a thing to fear. It’s being nervous and feeling your heart speed up as you enter a room. It’s feeling pressure in your chest as you walk out the door. It’s the fear you get on Sunday nights knowing when you wake up they’ll be school. It’s knowing when you wake up they’ll be school. It’s knowing no matter how many times you try to explain it, no one really gets it. It’s feeling so alone you shut your self off from everyone. It’s wanting to scream but not being able to even whisper a word. It’s being up all night being afraid of tomorrow and all the unknown. It’s being so broken you become numb. It’s making yourself physically sick. It’s panic attacks in public that you can’t control. It’s feeling nauseous just thinking about it. It’s not being hungry. It’s being exhausted all the time. It’s shaking but not being cold. It’s all of the above and so much more. It’s part of me. It’s consuming me.
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Be Inspired..!! 
Nicely put in words…so true
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Thank you! Glad you related to the post.
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Hello, u r such a wonderful writer. The most strange thing is at a time whatever I feel ur mesage always correlated to that..
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I am so happy to hear that.
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Reblogged this on ABventure.
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You are welcome GS
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It’s so inspirational
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Thank you. You are very kind.
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Thank you for sharing my post.
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Sending you much love.. it’s not easy living with anxiety.. stay strong.. ❤️
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Thank you very much.
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Exactly how I feel every day ♥️
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You are not alone.
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At least you are in good company ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ – so many of us feel that way too.
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Thank you for being so open and explaining this complicated condition. Anxiety can be a vicious cycle when we get caught up in it. My dad wrote a short book about anxiety and the causes and cure. Anxiety runs in our family so he, being a highly intelligent person, studied it until he figured it out. The panic attacks are the worst. I know that feeling of feeling a threat and thinking I was going to die, and not being able to figure out why, because nothing outside of me seemed to be the cause. The good news (if there is any good news about anxiety) is that you usually only get it if you are intelligent. Our brains are searching for answers, and dumping chemicals when we can’t figure it out. The more we try to fix it, the more chemicals being dumped, causing more anxiety. The short solution of it is to “give into it.” One time I pulled my car over into a parking lot, grabbed the steering wheel, and said, “okay, Anxiety. Just come and take me! I give in.” The panic attack subsided, and I went on about my day. Once I understood more about what was happening internally, I stopped fighting it, and I haven’t had any more panic attacks. — Just thought I’d share this information. I was grateful for my dad and him helping me through anxiety. I’m not trying to sell his book, but it’s only $3.99 and here’s the link if anyone wants it: https://www.amazon.com/Anxiety-Panic-Attacks-Cause-Cure-ebook/dp/B08734CP1H
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First, I hear you. I thought that I would share
Heavy
There are those days
It feels hard to breathe
Some are worse than others
It is like living in a dream
Not the kind with fairies
But with nightmarish schemes
They come from nowhere
Like rain on a summer day
Out of the darkness
Where words are hard to say
So it’s easier not to speak
Where everything is so heavy
How hard can it be
To verbalize the pain
Of wanting to be free
Yet waking up again
Caught in a space
Somewhere inbetween
This is the anxiety
That is called depression
Where the beating of your heart
Comes in quick secession
No one ever wants this
Or the feeling of being a burden
The suffering hearts
Are so often near
But even more unnoticed
By so many who are unaware
Until they stand on a ledge
Screaming to disappear
Words must be spoken
For a chance of being heard
Since we can’t read minds
We have to use the words
With a pen and paper
I find my cure
In a world lost
I am not hopeless
Silence is so lonely
But we have choices
As muffled as they are
God gave us voices.
Katherine Spitzer 4/28/18
Kat’s Gems
#poetry #life #depression #hope
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Beautiful!
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Thank you 🙏
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This is an excellent and moving expression of anxiety.
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I am happy you could relate to it.
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Reblogged this on The Reluctant Poet.
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Always a joy and pleasure to read and share great posts with followers, My Dear! Hope you have a great day!! 😘💕🎁🌹
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Nice
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Thank you!
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I believe we all have some or more anxiety. You write about it. That is very courageous and strong.
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It’s my therapy 🙂
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Mat, I don’t know if you agree, I anxiety has the most power when it can keep torturing us to stay silent.
If we can’t speak of it or write about it then it can keep the upper hand.
Many many years ago, thankfully, I had so much anxiety that I literally couldn’t my house alone. Anywhere there were a lot of people I would throw up. It was years of using all of the power in mind to fight back. Making out on my front porch and grabbing onto each little victory.
I don’t know why, but I wanted to share that with you. @GS YOU are courageous!
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Thank you for sharing, mygeminiandi. I believe – I almost know – that you are right. When we put anxiety into kind words and actions, it evaporates. Enjoy each of your victories.
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Anxiety has good and worst days. What coping tricks can you say have helped you before?
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Writing my feelings down has helped…also crying!
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Breathing deep breaths, taking off my shoes and socks and feel the ground underneath, distractions like coloring and listening to music, doodling, when it is really bad- I reach out for support.
I will also take an ice cube and hold it in the palm of my hand and watch it melt. I keep it there as long as possible because it is so cold that you can’t think of anything else. If you can’t think about being anxious, even briefly- then it is a victory.
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I learned this from a book: I say out loud: This is a moment of suffering. May I be kind. To myself. To others.
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Wow that is so accurate. Anxiety can feel too much to bear. Thanks for the mantra.
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I drop down into my body and feel where the sensation of anxiety sits and I breathe and give it a little space around it just to be there, and I sometimes put my hand on my chest x
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Yes I can relate to that! I remind myself till I believe that this too shall pass..it’s all going to make sense.
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I completely understand and agree. Hang in there, better days ahead!
At least, that’s what I keep telling myself.
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That’s all we can tell ourselves.
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Keep writing more like this
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Sure thing!
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Honest and heartfelt words. Thank you for sharing 🙂👍
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Glad you liked the post!!
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Anxiety hits so many people in so many different ways. Thank you for sharing your experience with it
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Most welcome. Glad you liked the post.
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