Before You Love Me

You need to understand that I’m damaged. I get triggered easily. I have struggled with things. There are nights when I’m curled up on a ball on the floor and I won’t talk to anyone. I’ll shut you out. I’m not going to be able to trust you for a while, because everyone has always left, cheated, or chosen someone else. I will need reassurance. I will need you. I will need you to keep choosing me. I’ll need you to care when I text you saying I’m getting bad again. I’m a lot, I know this.

So before you think I’m always happy, that I’ll always be positive, that I’ll always be smiling, know the reality before you get involved. Don’t enter my life if you can’t handle it. Lastly, don’t you dare touch my heart if you aren’t ready for that.

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41 Comments Add yours

  1. THE SPLASH says:

    This felt like i wrote it. Like you just copied if from my heart and put it on paper.

    Liked by 7 people

    1. GS says:

      Glad it touched your heart.

      Liked by 2 people

  2. Unrepressed rants says:

    Touched. Things we don’t say. So much truth💖

    Liked by 2 people

    1. GS says:

      Glad you liked the post.

      Like

  3. Sicetnon3 says:

    Love chooses you

    Liked by 3 people

    1. GS says:

      Yes 🙌🏼

      Liked by 1 person

  4. Daily Poetry says:

    It’s best being honest about things like that. People tend to rush in to things not knowing what they might expect.

    Liked by 3 people

    1. GS says:

      Honesty is the foundation for trust in a relationship, and trust is necessary for a relationship to function and thrive. When you’re always honest with someone, it tells them that they can trust you and the things you say. It helps them know they can believe your promises and commitments.

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  5. Musa Kabwere says:

    This is honest and superbly true. like we think everyone who smiles has all under control but they just smile because its a moment for them to smile. And when you dig deep into them, they are just badly broken and shattered. I’ve been that too.

    Liked by 3 people

    1. GS says:

      I can relate to what you are saying

      Liked by 1 person

  6. Love says:

    WordPress really need to create a love button because I don’t just like this, I love it.

    Liked by 2 people

    1. GS says:

      Thank you Love 💜

      Like

    1. GS says:

      Thank you for sharing my post

      Like

  7. I’m impressed by the depth of your writing. It has really resonated with me. Thanks for sharing these deep emotions and your beautiful language.

    Liked by 2 people

    1. GS says:

      Glad you liked the post Bianca.

      Like

  8. Pastor Amoah says:

    Very clear and unambiguous! Dont you dare touch my heart….. awesome. I sometimes wonder because some try to love you and then give up. I wish pple would make haste slowly.

    Liked by 2 people

    1. GS says:

      Wise words Pastor

      Like

  9. Do I know you? Or do you know me? Somehow I feel like we might already be acquainted.

    Liked by 2 people

    1. GS says:

      Not sure

      Like

  10. Rakesh kumar says:

    Very good message in little words!!

    Liked by 2 people

    1. GS says:

      Thank you Rakesh.

      Like

  11. DD says:

    This reminds me that I used to say, ‘You knew the job was dangerous before you took it’ when offering someone a job. But it was only market research, not my romantic heart.

    Liked by 2 people

    1. GS says:

      I guess it works in this context too..

      Liked by 1 person

  12. Omolade says:

    Wow! Great piece.

    Liked by 2 people

    1. GS says:

      Glad you liked the post

      Like

  13. 5at9 says:

    Nice

    Liked by 2 people

  14. 5at9 says:

    Yes

    Liked by 1 person

  15. Real and heart tugging. God bless you.

    Liked by 2 people

    1. GS says:

      Thank you! I am glad you liked the post.

      Like

  16. Shon Winters says:

    I am absolutely loved this post Empress! Keep it coming My Love! You ARE worth ALL the Love in the World…regardless of feeling like your “a lot”…trust me you are loved sight unseen and all.

    Liked by 3 people

    1. GS says:

      Thank you for such kind words Shon.

      Liked by 1 person

      1. Shon Winters says:

        Anytime Sis. 💕

        Liked by 1 person

  17. Bob Rich says:

    That’s where I was at 23. Then I got adopted by a girl who loved me anyway, and now we’ve been married 55 years. She still laughs at my jokes.
    Would you like a free review copy of “From Depression to Contentment: A self-therapy guide”?
    Bob

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  18. JAS says:

    Honesty is always a good thing. I think a lot of people are damaged in one way or another. But we have to keep trying to heal. A good read! Thanks for visiting my blog.

    Liked by 1 person

    1. GS says:

      Thank you for returning the favour and visiting my blog Jas. yes we have to keep trying and not settle

      Like

  19. tommestevenson@gmail.com says:

    WOW, I constantly weigh the emotional tsunami of love against the soul crushing pain of loss. I still pick love. Your post reminds me that love comes with a price. If it is love, the price is well worth paying. Thank you again for reminding me.

    Liked by 1 person

    1. GS says:

      Love requires you have a bit of vulnerability in yourself and allow the other into you — but love doesn’t restrict rules. For example, in your quest to love and be loved — you can build trust and give tests and things like that.

      Liked by 1 person

      1. Shaky. Ran away. It’better

        Liked by 1 person

  20. Bianca says:

    Wow. That’s really rough and honest. Love this.

    Liked by 1 person

    1. GS says:

      It’s scary to be vulnerable but life is all about taking risks..:)

      Like

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