Just a Pawn In The Large Scheme of Things


The truth is that we’re not just human “beings,” but also human “doings.”

My identity as a human being as opposed to a human doing—started to shift significantly during the beginning of the 2020 pandemic, with my value, talents, and beauty resting exclusively in my ability to serve as a receptacle and container for my soul. I thought this mentality shift, which shifted my sense of value away from my ability to produce and towards the core attributes I most naturally represented, was moving in a positive direction as my social life changed to accommodate essential societal alterations. After a number of hectic years, this way of thinking about life and the way I see myself was lovely and came fairly effortlessly.

I was unaware at the time, though, that this mentality change had started a cycle of inactivity in which I gradually forgot my own intrinsic worth. When it counted, I remained silent, I failed to express my needs, and at one point I lost track of what I was even trying to do. I had become hopelessly lost and was feeding into my own powerlessness, which was a fatal trap. Over the past three years, I have humbly come to realise that my initial assertion that we are human beings (rather than human doings) is fundamentally incorrect.

The most transforming and potent relationships, in my opinion, frequently lead us to rethink our core beliefs. This is how some wise relationships gently guided me to do. The truth is that my human being is just as valuable as my soul, and my capacity to express it is just as valuable if not more. How would these presents be given if not? Would I remain silent in crucial situations? Frankly, would there ever be any societal change at all? Is it not the point of our existence to be a little chaotic and for this chaos to awaken the world even when we ourselves lack the solutions? Sometimes all it takes for meaningful change to occur is a question that seems to be devoid of matter.

People are changed by creativity, and this creativity transforms paradigms before there are any practical solutions. Questions about systemic racism, human sexuality, the effects of religious conditioning, how we value and organise occupations, artificial intelligence, health and wellness, the definition of human relationships, and where the line of science and evolution must unfold are among the many that our world is pregnant with.

It would be an immense disservice to the world to portray me as anything less than a powerful human being capable of producing, acting, and speaking. Intentional action is a key component of empowerment. The only thing we can truly give to the world is the vessel of who we are; doing does not equate to being more. We create a society full of inactivity, blocked consciousness, hopelessness, disempowerment, and lost creativity when our wisdom, our “life juice,” and our life force are recklessly obstructed by the story that what we do comes second. We lose the ability to be creative and stretch ourselves, which makes us reluctant to talk at all.

What the world needs are strong, independent people who aren’t scared to make a mess of things and who trust that if we are truly vulnerable, the group will still see, love, hold, and value us all. The pandemic did not change who we were; rather, it made us less susceptible. We grew increasingly polarised in our opinions as we hid behind computer screens and experienced greater psychological terror. Social media algorithms increased our exposure to in-group and out-group behaviour by giving us more of what we wanted to see and hear. We lost sympathy as a species. In favour of working remotely, we left our jobs.

When we weren’t feeling well, we stopped leaving our homes out of fear and cancelled arrangements at the first sign of illness. Dating apps have taken the place of dancing and chit-chatting with random people, and frankly, very little has changed in terms of these paradigm shifts. We can only consider the idea that we have any value at all, and this question can only be answered by the behaviours we select. Only then can we be seen, loved, and cherished for who we are. consequences of both visible and invisible movement, as well as those of words and deeds, are all changed by vigorous interchange.

We are in this doorway, standing in this nothingness, where the choices we make about our deeds and words have an impact that extends farther than ever before. This need not make us feel smaller out of fear. It matters that we are true to who we are as people, and we are all equally capable of exercising this ability. implementing change that doesn’t feel futile and utilising words that don’t feel meaningless. Even though we are unaware of where this step may ultimately go, every time we choose to nurture authenticity and to not be afraid of the unknown is a vulnerable step in investing in the future of humanity.

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6 Comments Add yours

    1. GS says:

      Thank you. Glad you liked the post.


  1. Rochdalestu says:

    Love this! 🙌
    I have this framed and on my wall, it’s to me, exactly what I would explain existence as. It’s a mystery why this isn’t taught in schools?

    I, sitting here in this room, as complicated human beings, are way, way out on the fringe of that bang. We are the complicated little patterns on the end of it. Very interesting. But so we define ourselves as being only that. If you think that you are only inside your skin, you define yourself as one very complicated little curlique, way out on the edge of that explosion. Way out in space, and way out in time. Billions of years ago, you were a big bang, but now you’re a complicated human being. And then we cut ourselves off, and don’t feel that we’re still the big bang. But you are. Depends how you define yourself. You are actually–if this is the way things started, if there was a big bang in the beginning– you’re not something that’s a result of the big bang. You’re not something that is a sort of puppet on the end of the process. You are still the process. You are the big bang, the original force of the universe, coming on as whoever you are. When I meet you, I see not just what you define yourself as–Mr so-and- so, Ms so-and-so, Mrs so-and-so–I see every one of you as the primordial energy of the universe coming on at me in this particular way. I know I’m that, too. But we’ve learned to define ourselves as separate from it. And people get all fouled up because they want the world to have meaning as if it were words… As if you had a meaning, as if you were a mere word, as if you were something that could be looked up in a dictionary. You are meaning.

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    1. GS says:

      You are meaning

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  2. Wise words! Congratulations on publishing 👏

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    1. GS says:

      Thank you 🤍🤍

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